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On turning forty!

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So, this past July I turned the big 40! I must say it was a little hard to accept that I was actually the age that I used to think was ancient. As you can imagine, in the weeks and months beforehand I did a lot of soul searching and thinking about my life. The main thing that I think I came to is that I am pretty happy with where I am and how my life has turned out. I have a wonderful, very loving husband and three wonderful boys. Are they perfect? No, but guess what-- neither am I. I have a few regrets but who doesn't? I wish I knew then what I know now. I wish that I would have stayed in college and finished, or at least gone back when I was much younger, but I didn't. So now as I decide when and if I will go back to finish, it is a little daunting. I wish that I would have said "thank you" more often than I did. I have had people ask me what my midlife crisis is going to be. I personally do not see myself as a midlife crisis person. but I recently started karate and I guess right now that is my midlife crisis.

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