I don't know if most people would put these two together, but for me they do go together. Music has always been a big part of my life. No, I'm not musical in anyway, but I love to hear music and feel it. I LOVE to dance, but don't do it very often. Anyone who knows me well knows how much I love to dance, especially with friends. Right Anita!
Since our move to California I've been struggling with many things. I struggled with them before, but was able to avoid them somewhat with the distractions in my life. Unfortunately here my distractions are far less so all those struggles have finally made their way all the way to the front, which is so good in many ways and yet extremely hard in many others. So this is what leads me to my soul searching. The definition of soul searching is - the act or process of close and penetrating analysis of oneself, to determine one's true motives and sentiments. Perfect definition for what I'm doing. The thing is when doing soul searching you ultimately come to a point where you have to come to a conclusion, which is always the hard part for me.We do have external forces to turn too, such as religion, counselors, friends, family, clergy, food, exercise, shopping and for you there might be something not listed, I would have to add music for me. I listen to most music with a few exceptions, I like some rap, but on the most part it's not my favorite, heavy metal is an occasional thing and depends on who it is, jazz I like especially to swing dance too, but ultimately it always depends on the mood. Music has a calming affect on me, even some of the more extreme songs like Three days Grace "Animal I've become", I turn it up loud, sometimes sing and sometimes not, but then I feel better. I like to go to church early so that I can sit and listen to the music being played, it comforts me and gives me strength. But no music or other external help can take away the problems that seem to come our way. They are there to give us HELP not to remove them for us. We ultimately have to come to our own conclusions and find our own answers, based on the knowledge that we have and the strength that we have inside us at the time. But to my friends out there soul searching like myself I have two songs for you "Juanita" by Shania Twain and the other is called " Hold On" by B*witched it's from The Princess Diaries soundtrack. The first one is easy to find, the second was given to me by a friend before I moved here to California, but we both agree it fits better now than it did then. I will include the words below.
Hold on
You've always been a tough girl
But you feel you're about to break.
You're feeling stuck and out of luck
Watching your dreams all slip away.
You've been working mornings in the kitchen
and nights at the corner store.
As your life flies by you wonder why
And you know that there's gotta be something more.
[Chorus]
Hold On
But don't hold too tight
let go its gonna be alright
Don't run away from what your heart is saying
Ohh Be strong
Face what you're afraid of
Come on
Show them what you're made of
I know its hard when your hope is gone
But you gotta keep holding on.
[Verse 2]
You hear a voice thats calling
And its telling you to make a change.
It's time to fly
And say goodbye
And move on to a better place
You know you gotta take the first step
To get where you wanna be
Just get on track and don't look back
Cause its the only way you're gonna be free.
[Chorus]
Hold On
Your gonna make it
Your gonna be stronger
Hold On
Hang in there baby
Just a little bit longer
Hold On
There your gonna be fine
Dont give up
Be strong
When the going gets tough
You gotta Hold On
Hold On
[Chorus X 2]
Yeahhhhh
Hold On
Hold On
Hold On
